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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Swirling Up and Down.

mind's in a whirl, dont know what to do.

was quite mad at him for not calling at first. then when he finally did, all he could say was "did you go exercise and get rid of your belly?" maybe i shouldnt have wished he called.

yeah, you can totally hear my heart break. maybe taiwan too far, cannot hear. i was so eggcited about him asking me about my driving test cause i thought that it meant a lot to us. but no, he completely forgot about it.

called me after that to break good news. he performed extremely well during this trip and he got selected for OCS. should have felt really happy and proud but i didnt. was selfish cause i didnt want him to be so occupied with army and push me out of his life. yeah, i dont want to be the majority of officers' girlfriends who end their relationships because of it.

oh wells, still whatever decision hes made, im going to support him and yes, hes a winner alrdy in my heart. (:

anws, lied to him that i didnt pass my driving test. but he was too happy with his own achievement to really console me. oh wells, he deserves all the limelight for all the shit he went through. its just that i thought it'd matter more to him.

its alright, im planning to give it to him in the car if i pick him up on sunday morning. im torn apart right now. we'll see how tmr goes. maybe he'll care a tad bit more and everything would be worthwhile again.

anyhow, this is the diary that i made for him for this trip. yes, the one that i did till 3 in the morning TWICE. gave dolly this one for marketing accounts. LOL. (:

okays, got to go download lecture notes alrdy. bye.

23:05