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Thursday, August 13, 2009

and there was none left.

being grown up leaves you with plenty of alone time. time that allows you to reflect on your actions, time that allows you to plan for your future actions.

been thinking along lately, during the walk down to the bus stop and on the long trips to school.

university is just so hard. catching up on the very different topics and concepts is tough, but finding friends of the same wavelength is even harder.

somehow, old friends still seem more comfortable. i find it so hard to show who i really am to new people. yeah, they dont know that im a bitch. HAHA. cause i tend to clam myself up when im with them and be the quiet girl in the corner just listening on. unbelievable right?

sometimes i lay in bed, all shagged out but i just cant bring myself to sleep. these are the times when i wonder, ponder really hard.

i wonder why did things turn out like that? why are the people/things i love walking away slowly from me? and somehow, no matter how hard i try, they keep getting further and further. evrything was so perfect and beautiful before all these started.

cried myself to sleep last night. lucky the eye bags didnt show. i missed everyone. yeah, i miss her the most. i dont know why. why did our schedules get so busy that we're missing out on each other so much. i missed the times where we could just hang out all day, talk about everything under the sun and not be afraid to be who we are.

she left me. left me for better i guess. oh wells. i guess i just have to suck it all up and get on with life. build myself from scratch.

i miss my chuan boon. i wonder if he misses me as much as i do. saw his photos on my magnetic board and missed his smile. read his msges on my phone and missed the way we always bully each other.

asshole in army, come back quick. i cant survive the next 9 days without you. <3

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