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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

oh damn, just deal with it.

went to keming for the relief teaching interview with melmel jnw! LOL. both of us like spent 15 minutes in the hot sun trying to get a cab all because we didnt want to take the 5 minutes walk from the bus stop to keming. HAHA.

anyhow, mel got the permanent job! (: LOL. so happy for her cause i know she'll do her very best at it and do me proud. (:

then we went to railway mall for ah mei's kaya toast with miss kho; her treat! the roti pratas never fail to fill my tummy with satisfaction. *slurps*

after that mel and i went to blooie's roadhouse! we were like so swaku cause we didnt know that prices of drinks would be so cheap during happy hour that we ordered 3 at one shot. (:

first came the mojito which was somewhat sweet sour cause of the limes in it.

then came this slippery nipple which totally changed our faces. it was so fugging gross that when i sipped on it, my eyeballs just flipped white and the alcohol just oozed out from whatever outlet i have on my face. we totally freaked out and tried to cancel our flaming lamborghini but they have alrdy prepared. HAHA.

stupid poinkpoink told me she was damn seh after drinking the lamborghini that we were damn hum when going to start our furious downing of it. LOL. it wasnt that bad lah. at least both of us didnt feel anything much but some burns in the chest. HAHA.

mel is like the best company for drinking cause shes as swaku as me! so we do all the stupid things tgt and get fascinated at the slightest cool stuff. LOL. how much more can i love my bestie! <3

and woohoohoo again! cause im going to sign up for driving tmr with chiamchiam! (: i know lah, again right? cause mummy forgot that she kept my IC so this time, im going to use my passport! how cool is that, yo.

all i wanted was to hear those soft words from yoo. i called yoo when i was at my weakest, when i needed yoo the most. but all yoo did was hit me with hard reality and expect me to swallow it. im a girl, i need time, i need your comfort under those bigg wings of yours. yoo dont love me like yoo used do, cause yoo never treated me like before. yoo get agitated so easily and start raising your voice at me. i mean, why dont yoo try to put yourself in my shoes? and, i know im not as important as your family, maybe not as important as your friends or whatever. i thought i knew i had a firm place in your heart, but now i dont anymore. yoo dont even feel like spending your first few moments of 2009 with me. just those few moments. yoo know how envious i feel when i see couples spending such moments tgt? i didnt even get christmas with yoo and i dont even stand a slightest chance of having the first 10 minutes of your 2009. i feel that your love isnt there anymore. yoo might say it isnt true, but i cann feel it. though we're so so so happy when we go out and stuff, but emotionally, i cant see where we even click. im really not sure. sometimes, i scared myself so much that i wonder if all these harsh treatment is part of your perfect little plan of ending us before the enlistment. yoo may claim that idea is way over, but somehow its still lingering in me. then i wonder to myself, why am i sabotaging our relationship like that? then i realise, i haven wholly trusted in yoo again. all those lying and stuff, had hit me so hard. i wonder when will yoo ever love me so much, that im the only one yoo wanna spend those special moments with, the only pair of eyes yoo wanna look deep into, the only hand yoo wanna hold, the only one yoo wanna be on the phone with for 3 hours not saying a word. seems like for now, im the last person yoo even wanna talk to. i dont know, dont know what to do to make yoo love me as much as i love yoo. yes, i am this stupid. stupid to still hold on like that when yoo're just pushing me so far away. oh wells, it just sucks to be celest.

Labels: flaming lamborghini, mojito, slippery nipple

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