im sorry it had to end this way.

im really sorry things had to end this way. but the moment yoo said yoo wont give in anymore cause yoo've have had it. i knew it was the end. i dont want it to end so soon cause i know the life span of our relationship is way longer than this. i couldnt believe yoo hung up on me. yoo never did that. not once, from as far as i could remember.

my intention of calling was really to make things better. to tell yoo everything, how i feel and the change of tmr's plans and what i had installed for us. but all these never got to come out of my mouth. all that came out were words that i never meant. all just to hear yoo say that yoo're sorry and that yoo love me just like before.

things will never be the same, no matter we decide to patch up or not. the moment i made my statement that i really do love yoo, all yoo said to me, smirkingly, was not to tell yoo such things anymore. from then on, i know that we're through.

yoo're not the darhling i fell in love with from the beginning. my boonboon loved me, with all that his heart could give. but now, there's a quota for the number of times he gives in to me during arguments.

actually, quarrelling with me is very fruitless. cause in the end, i'll just wake up the next morning, forgetting all that happened. yoo know that, but yoo can never just give in and let me be, knowing that every thing would just be alright when dawn breaks. and yoo know deep down, that if yoo just drop by tmr, all these would just disappear like it never happened at all. but i know yoo'd choose not to.

maybe im just selfish and spoilt and unreasonable to some. but its just because when i give in, i dont say it. maybe thats why yoo're feeling like this. that im just some spoilt brat who just wants her bf to give in to her evey whim and fancy.

throughout last night and today, ive been doing my best. giving all i could to put things behind even though yoo gave me negative response. but seriously, am i asking to much? i just want to have a good time with yoo. to see your smile, to hear your laughter, to see yoo just being happy.

i waited all night for your msg but to no avail and i plucked up a whole lot of courage to call. even though i honestly feel that ive been trying so hard to make things work. i just want a simple explanation, an apology, and an "i love yoo".

so now that things have turned out this way, i guess theres no turning back. cause none of us would be willing to bend our heads and make the first move. frankly, im so tempted to but from the way to spoke to me, deep down, i know yoo'll never wanna carry on.

so hopefully yoo'll watch this video for one last time, think back on all our sweet moments, smile and say to yourself, "im glad that we were once together". cause thats what i'll be thinking. ive no regrets being your girlfriend, not now, and never will.

so thanks for the times yoo've given me, sharing all your problems and your joys. and thanks for all the quarrels we had, for yoo've made me grow, to understand and listen to others. thanks for once being mine. <3

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